in my NUT'S shell: July 2011

Jul 31, 2011

The True Identity of Mine: The Night Walker.

Somehow or I don't know how, I love the night.

When the sun sets, the hidden passion and ineffable joy comes to me.

I guess I feel peace.

When everyone sleeps, I feel the peace and the silent to my brain and heart.
I love the solitude.
I guess, this is their conversation:

Heart: Why you're not sleeping?
Brain: I'm thinking dude, I've a lot of thing to think.
Heart: Dude, you sounds like having a hectic life, can't you just stop down?
Brain: You are pumping everyday. Why don't you stop? I'll stop if you stop.

Okay. I am lame.
Can't help it. It's night. And I love immersed into my own thoughts.
And while everyone is sleeping soundlessly, imagination works the best.
Somehow, I even imaginably believe the existence of zombies. Or apocalypse of zombie might happens.
They bump into my room and, ewwwwwww. *your imagination*

The solitude, the calm of myself that you only found on me in the dark.

I'm a night crawler, a peace seeker.
Sometimes, I just want someone who sits beside silently and share the same air.
Nothing much more than that.
Just like the dark, comes silently, and go soundlessly.
But leave me calm-er soul.
Sometimes. Just sometimes.

Silence is the true friend of mine that never betrays, is my best way to keep away from problems, and is my best revenge.

Jul 28, 2011

Fragile of Life: I'm Sick.

I never left my blog oblivious lately because I'm trying to jot down every single minute of happiness and indecisive moments of mine.

I understand there is no second take in life.

And I understand how frail of us living in this world.

We never know what will happens next.

These days I'm suffering from fever, severe headache, and the worst part is I'm incapable to urinate.

I'm seriously regret that I never tend my body well all these while.

And how I miss the days I'm granted with a healthy body like a cow! *moo*

Somehow, people forget the basic of happiness, until they lost it.

The basic happiness.

Is the health.

All these while I am looking for happiness, I never knew how simple yet tough to own it, health is the key.

I was born with a very weak body.

All these while the traditional Chinese medical doctors say I am young, but with a old body.

I suffer from all kind of sickness since I'm a newborn.

On and off, I went to the clinic.

Enzyme and eyes inflammation are my 'best friend'.

After years and years of looking for the doctors, I've already gave up.

But, surprisingly, they've decrease the frequent of visiting me.

Appreciate before it is too late.

Appreciate.

And I appreciate all the things that is given, the chance that's taken.

how i wish to play in the field right now

Thanks for giving me a chance to understand how important is health and how blessed I am!

Oppps.

Got to drink water and study!

ciao!

Jul 26, 2011

Live Once, Crazy Twice.

It's such a happy moments to be with a gang of friends.

It's been a real long time since last time I've been out with a tremendous group of people of joy like them.

Everybody have their own story.

But when come to music, everybody give their best.

This is because, there is music in our bones and blood.

Ahhem. Except for Matthew, he have something else in his brain. (yes, porn!)

Peeps, life is exactly like a bubble.

You blow and blow, you never know when it will burst.

If you blow and blow and stop and do it all our again, you can repeat many times.

But if you try too hard. POPS.

There goes, you will be in a mess. Sticky mouth.

Life's short, go get your friends along and party, don't just stay in your house!

For people who keep party, you keep party, ain't you feel lonely sometimes even with all the people around you? STAY HOME.

Some pictures taken on that day:

POSERs.

heh. kiut guy.

OScar

whoops.

bye!

Random: Driving.

I never drives since there is 'someone' who drive me here and there.
I love sitting on his left.

I hate driving ever since he's gone.
Driving is such a sick and tiring task to me.

Especially,
Whenever I drive, I will easily drawn into memories.
It's a black hole.

Black Black hole that I nearly went accident last time.

Too bad today have to drive to school.
And again, memories and all the drama starts over and over again in my mind.

All the arguments and sweet talks that ever happened, came across my mind.

I'd miss, no more.

Jul 24, 2011

ABCdefg.......

It's so hot and Oh my.

If you want some good cheap ice cooling effect on your tongue, this is definitely the place!

It's at the Prince Park. (太子园)
It's Taman Muda FYI. Just the street around the wet market.

Awesomeeeeeee!

Drools!

They have the best ABC I ever taste.

The others like Cendol and also 'ManTao' Ice are Awesome too!

and OH MY GOD.

So cheap lo!

Cheaper than your chatime, your bubble tea, your Starbucks etc etc.

Tell me where you get nice ABC cheaper than this in KL?

Sometimes, I really think buying these is really too expensive.

But these.... hahah!

Tempted already?

What you waiting for?

Get chilled!

Bye.

xoxo

Jul 22, 2011

好马不吃回头草？

饮食，不存在‘吃过了最好的，就不能吃没那么好的’逻辑。
饮完了红酒，我们还是会回头饮清水，饮拧乐。
但是，在爱情世界里，‘爱过最好的，就不能回头再爱没那么好的’却是不变的真理。

爱过胸襟宽阔的，就没法再爱自私畏缩的。
爱过善良悲悯的，就没法再爱对别人的命运毫无感觉的。
爱过慷慨大方的，就没法再爱斤斤计较的。
爱过知识渊博的，就没法再爱不学无术的。
爱过风趣幽默的，就没法再爱木讷古肃的。
爱过情深似海的，就没法再爱玩世不恭的。

......

当你已经爱过那么好的，你是真的没有办法再对一个没那么好的投入深情。
即使情势所迫，你最终的选择是‘没那么好的’，但你自己会知道，心中有个角落是空的，如一张虚席，永远为‘最好的’那个人而设。
跟‘没那么好的’人在一起，偶或，你会感怀身世，自悲自怜。

情爱世界无逻辑可言。所以，另一个回不了头的，它与是不是‘最好’无关，那是你的‘最爱’。
‘最爱’的未必是‘最好’的，甚至是最坏的；非但是最坏的，更可能是对你最坏的。
可你就是不可救药的爱那个人。无论多么鄙视自己，你就是回不了头，就是没法再用这么大能量去爱另一个人。
那是因为你已经爱到了谷底，反弹乏力。

－高慧然

多么有意思的作品。
它以玲玲细细的泄露，解剖我的内心。

我已爱到谷底，反弹乏力。
我已开始不相信爱了。

亲爱的读者们，你们相信恋爱是有筹码的吗？
我相信。
千万不要把筹码花在不必要的人身上。
要是两人已牵手，切记：

可以随时牵手，但不要轻易放手。

P/S:

活在谎言中其实也是一种幸福。
钥匙是：永远不知道真相。

Jul 20, 2011

My Challenge 2011 (Ended)

awww. what a nice tiara and fake big eyes.

TOO BAD.

OUTTTTT!

I'm feeling so devastated.

For a lot of reasons.

By the Way, just to share out that I've already failed my My Challenge 2011:(

Awww. I don't blame on anyone but myself.

Arrogant and conceited is inside part of me.

I did not do enough practice, because I thought music is born inside of me, I thought it is a piece of cake.

I thought it is only an normal audition.

It's not.

I disappointed myself.

End up I run tempo lo! *sigh*

Embarrassment.

I learnt two lessons.

First, never look down on any of your opponent and appreciate your chance.

Second, always choose your best dress when you're heading out (ANYWHERE) despite on whatever event. *even go PM also wear like yes like that ok!*

Cause that gives you a better first impression.

Cause opportunity does not ring a bell before they come!

Good Luck! to myself only ah.

Ok, ending with a song that currently quite match with myself.

p/s: I look nice with the tiara and big eyes right?

just say yes ok?

fine.

I AM SAD!

Ciao.

Jul 19, 2011

Breaking Up.

People were asking what so good about being mingle.

Getting attached, commitments, hugs, kisses on forehead, fell so in love, break of promises, egoism and jealousy, flirt and there,

BREAK UP again and again.

After last time break up, I never have a full concentrate on any relationship any more.
It's because there is a big part of me, cannot let go the big part of him.
I am too stubborn to forget every days that we've been together.

Time flies, It has been more than 9months, and still counting.
When is this ends? God knows.

The guilt, the hatred and hurt grows on me every single day.
I do feel devastated sometimes. And the other time, I try my best to not.

Sometimes, it will be not with me, sometimes, it comes back and haunts me.

I'd still missing.

If you're are reading, just want to tell you, my heart never change.

Jul 17, 2011

Just SING.

The school is having Open day on my big day, the my challenge audition.

I bet that's the challenge that god's giving to me. Twice challenging than the audition I bet.

As for the first time, I'm showing my lousy result to the world. hah!

But as for the most surprising part is, all the best true friends are sending wishes and showing very supportive faces, although they are not going to Sri KDU.

Especially Pei Hua and Xiwen.